Spiritual

So a lot has changed since my last post. I'm more spiritual than ever. I still believe in God. That hasn't changed. But how I see life and after life and past lives has changed. I believe there is a lot more out there than a lot of us think there is. I've been meditating every day for the past 3 weeks and I love it. I'm also in to Crystals now and working with the Chakra. Trying to tap in to my psychic abilities and intuition etc. I strongly believe in the paranormal. I'm NOT a witch. I don't cast spells. I respect those who do though. Every religion or faith I believe is right. Whatever you believe whether it be Christian, Judaism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Wiccan, etc. is right. There is no wrong faith. This is how I FEEL. I don't read it from a book or Bible that tells me I should feel this way. I strongly feel this way on my own. No one has talked me in to it.

I'm going to eventually be taking a Psychic Development class that I am very excited about. So we'll see what happens.

I feel It's always good to believe in something. What do you have to lose?? You are only in this lifetime once. Do what's right for your soul.

I'm back...

It's seriously been forever. Sometimes I forget about this blogger. Now that I work from home I should update more often.


Every time I think of this one particular low life scumbag it just makes me blood boil.

I should learn my lesson on NOT reading about ghosts and demons RIGHT before bed. I wake up in the night thinking they are trying to possess me. UGH! Not fun.

I'm still loving the LA/California life.

Diana, thanks for reading my blogs. I'm pretty sure your the only one. Ha I always forget about this thing so sometimes I don't read your comments until way later. But I do read them. Thanks for leaving them. :)

I have a headache. I'm going to bed. Do some word search and read a book in bed until I can't function anymore.


Night!

Long time no see

So, it's been a while. A lot has changed since my last blog.

I live in Malibu now.
Things are great.
Quit eating meat and deep fried foods...yesssssss!
I bowl and play tennis regularly.
I'm addicted to Facebook more than Myspace now.
I still love music and probably always will.

It bothers me that people think I'm crazy because I believe in spirits/ghosts etc. You can believe what you want but don't look at me like everything you believe in is the only right way.

I do NOT want kids. To put it nicely. I may be nurturing and I love kids. But not for me. I'm too selfish to have kids. I like doing whatever I want whenever I want and don't have to worry about another person to dress and take care of. I have my boyfriend I can do those things with.

Bordom and Faith

I am sitting here listening to part of Imogen Heap's new album on Myspace. I can't say enough how incredible bored I am. All weekend all I've been doing is sleeping. Not because I'm tired, but because it's something I just do during the day now.

I did something I think is good but I get heck from some people. If a young girl knocked on your door looking for change to do laundry because her boyfriend kicked her out and threw all her stuff out of the apartment and went to Vegas with a girl he's cheating on her with. And she is from Portland and has no money to get there until her parents send her money. All I did was help her out by giving like $2 in change. I felt good and thought I was doing a good thing helping her. But everyone seems to think she was lying and I shouldn't have done it. What is happening to this world? I try and do something good and I get shit for it. It's sad that no one would help someone else just because they don't know them. I'm saying right now that if I was in trouble I would want someone to help me. This is what happens when people lose all faith in anything out of the "norm".

It makes me sad to see so many people not have any belief in anything at all nowadays. It's like well, I for one would like to know there is something to look forward to. We got on this earth somehow. For those people that don't believe in anything I'd like to know what their explanation is. I'm very understanding and I think everything and anything is possible. I believe in more than any one person does I can say that much. I'm not saying I follow by book. I have my own beliefs. But at least I can say that.

I would like to know that there is good out there still. I'm sure there is. It's just hard to find.

Friends or Boyfriend?

How come when I didn't have a boyfriend and just friends there was more drama than ever. But as soon as I got a boyfriend it disappeared by almost fully. I think I'll stick with a boyfriend. Of course I just sit home but still. To those who knew me before I got a boyfriend, sorry I'm so boring now.

I'm listening to music but I can still hear a whole bunch of noises in my apartment. I think there might be a ghost or something.

Bed.

Johnny Cash

One of the best videos EVER!

Control

It's been a while since I've posted. It's been really busy and I just haven't had the time.

I'm really annoyed now so I feel the need to vent. Money is not everything. When people feel that money is more important than someone's feelings or a person in general, is just wrong. I just seem to loose respect for them and look at them in like "Are you serious"? look. I'm not dumb and I'm not an idiot. Not everyone knows everything there is in life. When someone has to insult someone because they are not like them is wrong. Not everyone is the same. I'm a good person and I don't just lash out to people. I just hold it in and ignore everything. I'm not about to insult someone or belittle someone to make myself feel better. I don't hate people. I just decide if that person is going to make me a better person or a worse person. I weight the odds and whatever makes me better I go with that.

Why do people feel the need to control other people? You are not them. Stop making decisions for them. I don't tell someone what to wear, what to buy, what to say. I'm not going to be a puppet and do what every one else does. It's not me. I'm not going to act a certain way because that's what's expected. If I don't have anything to say I say nothing at all. If I don't feel a certain way I don't say I feel it.

Well, I'm done. I think I'll go make dinner and clean. :)

Merry Christmas everyone!