Bordom and Faith

I am sitting here listening to part of Imogen Heap's new album on Myspace. I can't say enough how incredible bored I am. All weekend all I've been doing is sleeping. Not because I'm tired, but because it's something I just do during the day now.

I did something I think is good but I get heck from some people. If a young girl knocked on your door looking for change to do laundry because her boyfriend kicked her out and threw all her stuff out of the apartment and went to Vegas with a girl he's cheating on her with. And she is from Portland and has no money to get there until her parents send her money. All I did was help her out by giving like $2 in change. I felt good and thought I was doing a good thing helping her. But everyone seems to think she was lying and I shouldn't have done it. What is happening to this world? I try and do something good and I get shit for it. It's sad that no one would help someone else just because they don't know them. I'm saying right now that if I was in trouble I would want someone to help me. This is what happens when people lose all faith in anything out of the "norm".

It makes me sad to see so many people not have any belief in anything at all nowadays. It's like well, I for one would like to know there is something to look forward to. We got on this earth somehow. For those people that don't believe in anything I'd like to know what their explanation is. I'm very understanding and I think everything and anything is possible. I believe in more than any one person does I can say that much. I'm not saying I follow by book. I have my own beliefs. But at least I can say that.

I would like to know that there is good out there still. I'm sure there is. It's just hard to find.

Friends or Boyfriend?

How come when I didn't have a boyfriend and just friends there was more drama than ever. But as soon as I got a boyfriend it disappeared by almost fully. I think I'll stick with a boyfriend. Of course I just sit home but still. To those who knew me before I got a boyfriend, sorry I'm so boring now.

I'm listening to music but I can still hear a whole bunch of noises in my apartment. I think there might be a ghost or something.

Bed.